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Friday, June 04, 2004
Alright for the day's account... another day, nothing really extraordinary, having to wake up feeling bad... moody and sucky... then went for that stupid racial harmony thing at CCAB, where first thing i entered the hall, was to wait and wait and wait... i sitted there waited for almost 1 1/2 hrs before there were something to do... i am in charge of one game station, but the game is so simple, i wonder, why do we need so many trial runs... But thank God, dear Dawn was there to message me, it took me off that gloom for a moment... then the thought that i am returning to college, brighten me... from then i kept smiling... smiling with a mixed heart(of guilt and worries)... college... which means i might get to see Dawn... but to my dismay... nah... not even a reflection... as per norm, disappointed, heavy heart, worry and guilt... heavy laden i tell you... i just wasnt in the mood to do anything... like as if i am the past few days... then reached home, do project work... i know if i dont do now, i will never do... so i forced myself to do... though not very fruitful, at least i did a little... but at least the day ended of quite good...
well, today, once again, once in a blue moon... i got to really solid talk with kor... i just be truthful... tell him how bad i felt after saying that he is a bit chauvinist... i mean if you are a guy, you certainly will not want to be called chauvinist...
then awww.. he is so sweet haha... chat with me... and said so many nice things... in fact today, he used proper english.. and its sounded so good... profund yet comprehensible, thats wat i can describe... and Ooooo i just check the chat log... kor actually, ask me hows my morning haha... alright its up there... i wasnt even at home hahaha... and yet i am online weird...but anyway back to topic... hahaha kor actually said this, "furthermore, i hold no grudge on you...you silly boy... forgiving oneself is the first step of learning..." its very sweet of him really... the moment i read this, i was like Awwwwww.... true true... its really great to know that me and kor has gone beyond the surface talk of months back... really its great...
I also get to chat with serene, one of my secondary school classmate.. also once a church mate, now a heaven mate... then i was sharing how blessed my life was... and indeed, blessed am i with 2 precious.... KoR and the Morning Light... they are indeed my precious... though yes... actually kor still address me quite formally but well haha... on my side, kor just comes very naturally... i get to know him better today.. having to know the music type that he like and the type of shirt... Importantly... he is a great ice cream lover... but seriously, whenever i have to share about someone of upmost importance to me... Mmmmmmmm its definitely kor or dawn... its like this time.. i am getting more and more serious no longer just play play... i am trying my best, putting all i can to build these relationships, and bring it higher... but of course somethings in life just not controllable by us... but we can try to push to the limit and even beyond...
now i am very tired... tomorrow she is breaking camp... yes... Finally ahahha... tomorrow is going to be a gd day... Praise God!
Remembering On|6/04/2004 11:34:00 PM|
Blessed aint I ...
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