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Thursday, June 03, 2004
First time ever, i am going to be vulgar here...
WAH LAO!!!WHAT KIND OF BROTHER AM I MAN!!! DAMN GUILTY NOW!!!
First, i was chatting with mr yihao about yes, our princesses, then we were talking about my dear brother's, of course i sang praises after praises about her... yihao asked, "so hows silvest???" guess what, me this greatest fool ever said, "oh he is very good with words, and very caring towards his princess... however, being an only child, he is a little bit, just a bit chauvinist, just in small little areas..." What the heck am i talking??? how could i even speak negative about my own brother...
Alright thats one, next... i said only child, when i read his blogger, i was like," Oh ShiT!", HE HAS AN ELDER SISTER!!!! Now i am super duper ultra guilty... what the **** am i doing man??? I didnt even know that my dear brother has an elder sister... serious... its time i give myself 2 tight slap on the face, and wake up man!!!
Alright again, thats not all... now this afternoon, yes, ever since she goes for her odac camp, i was listless, and just wasnt in the mood for anything... why?? read on... then we went to salvation army to pick toy for funfair... as we were picking, i was still in that daze mode...
Now for why i am in daze... on our way back... chean xiu, pop up, then started saying, "Dawn! ..." i tell you, the rest is not important cause i also never really listen, the first word is enough to blast me off... i was downright worried sick, for my dear princess... she is having what camp??? ODAC!!!!!! all the rock wall climbing, all the risky activities... I tell you, especially for rock wall... i am also a climber.. i know the risk... though yes there will be people to ensure her safety.. but i can tell you, i am still worried sick... in order to come down the wall after the climb, you have to fall... either by abseilling, or by literately fall... and let the rope let you down... i tell you.. abseiling is not as dangerous, just that my dear princess's hand might get cut... but falling, if i am there and see her fall... my heart will fly out will her man!!! might even jump out!!! oh ya chean xiu and yi hao... they said, "dawn not here only so moody"... i know they are just kidding, but i cant contain it anymore.. i blurt out, " enough, its because she's not here, i am worried sick..." i tell you, actually i wanted to watch harry potter, well i like it a lot... so??? weirdly i dont have the mood to watch at all... i might end up watching next week after all, i might not enjoy the show now... serious...
Oh gosh... what a day, what a day!!! Started with worry ended with worries and guilt... now, i really m very guilty, dont know how to face my dear bro really, such small things like his family members, i didnt even know... and fancy me using words like 'chauvinist'... i really dont know what is going on with me man... and till now i am still very worried, serious... though she should be having her lights out very soon... oh gosh... seriously, so far in my entire life only 2 people have created such a great impact, such great worries and made me miss them so much... thats none other than my kor silvest and my princess dawn...
Now there's something really bad bad... Where's my bible???? its missing!!!!
Oh my!!! Oh my!!! God... Be with them... bless them and protect them... right now as my princess is still in camp, let Your hand hold her and protect her... and bring Your Word back to me... AMEN!!!
Remembering On|6/03/2004 10:33:00 PM|
The Day with the Greatest Guilt...
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