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Sunday, June 13, 2004
12 May 2004
Mmm... Well, alrite, indeed i didnt really start of the day that well.. it was terrible, i even turned harsh at my princess... can you believe it.. hahah unbelievable but i did...
well, alrite, wake up, in a daze, next, i felt.. Mmm something i didnt do.. whats that whats that... oh yes, i am suppose to be in school.. and i shld be there at 8am but now what time, goodness 8.05 am and i am still not in school uniform... shit! i just changed, and rushed off.. seriously, i am like what the how i wish i didnt have to be there... but thinking, no matter what... Exco... alrite alrite... i will be there... reached there, been there, and met one of the elects, he/she say go council room... alrite, i go... remember i am still moody and grumpy and in a terrible state... enter, go settle orientation package... 17 shirts missing, 7 pouches missing... fine, will think of a way to settle it... suddenly i felt so useless... i have nothing to do already... all the rooms got like lots of people working in there, me one more person instead of help is like an extra.. serious, SCA room so many people... REC too... council room... perhaps marcom... touch one paper say, "song dedication", pj shouted... "oi, marcom one, dont touch"... FINE! next alrite my favourite com.. welfare... nurul say... " i am stock taking dont touch..." alrite... out of boredom, i just sat on the table... just see the sky.. see the floor.. now now... those who knows me wld know, thats like what... i am sure you know whats my feeling... if say got thing but i never help, alrite my fault, but now got lots of things, yet i dont seem to be able to help... thats the most pathetic thing... but well.. yihao came along, he said, lets carry lockers, alrite, finally something to do... helped with the carrying ... soon after all lockers are carried out... then again.... the sky the grass... finally i just go, argh, lets just say i go... like who cares... they have the president, they have that muscular and strong hunky vice president... why would they need a puny, little me.. fine, vanish!
Wah lao, like harry potter rite, vanish! then teleport...
Then gave tutoring to my juniors back at home... i think cause i wasnt feeling well, i teach, wow haha.. i am like ultra super long chain, and blabber non stop... all the theories, sequence tied up.. and gave a long fast speech... and in just 2 hours, i taught 9 chapters of chemistry haha... and even got time for revision for all 9 chapters.. super sia... kor arh, resemble you rite.. feeling bad then super ultra like that... its like madness, but i did it anyway... haha.. i think i will reinforce again next week... but then the one i am tutoring also very receptive i think thats why... haha...
Then comes lunch... lemon chicken rice... sux! haha the taste is awful... but then its either i eat or go hungry... aiya not happy, gloomy, moody also dont need to vent it on my stomach rite... so eat..
Then comes afternoon... well i was rather cold to eveyone.. then some i dont bother, some well, felt quite bad, so alrite sms them, apologise for being so cold to them... then princess pop up, online i mean... she said nvm... then she asked what happen to me, then i just say, "nah, bad morning, which is influence by the nite... kor somemore have to counsel me.... thats how bad..." then she say alrite, then i also added that the way they converse in the morning i felt like blasting them, com this com that... what council is divided into so many coms, worse still, exco is like what, no com... why other com cannot help each other arh... Gen Ex cannot help com arh... then she is like, "no, u shld be in sca rm" then i say, "all rooms are full, what you expect!" then she say, "when we find you we cant find you, dont where you disappear to... " i go, " i told chea xiu already what!"... alrite, sure she is not used to it... i was always gentle to her, but today, erm... then she say, "look like you are still in a foul mood, tc den!" i was like, "alrite... sorry sis... " guess what i got next.. "Erm, dont call me sis, i only want to be your friend..." Wah lao... 3 streaks appear on my face, and my heart starts to tear, to shatter... what now... wah so hard to be my sibling is it??? kor, is it really that hard ???
Then i was like, what the shit! finally argh.. go pray... already felt much better... there's power in praying...then cheered up a little... then thought back of what kor told me... Mmm make sense, why be bothered by such stuff.. bo chup... go do work, so keep myself busy...just dont let it influence my mood... so make myself very busy... then a stupid thought came... why am i working???? working for what??? like as if i will earn anything from it... then i was a bit like true...but then again if i dont do work, do what??? kor in ubin, then the rest all dont where... play games... where got games to play??? so work haha... cow rite...
Then towards the night, alrite, got better and better... then i smsed kor, i think he also might be quite pissed by me, i know... yesterday just talk to me about pessimistism, then today message him what, "today was horrible terrible..." i think he is quite sick of it.. and i forgot to elaborate... actually not because of princess, but because of my pictures... i click on wrong button and all my years of collection diasppeared!!! Arrhhh this is the terrible thing... years you know!!!so kor, now you know arh... wasnt trying to be negative... but i remembered, what he told me, " i chose to be happy"... yup, though its years, i also chose to be happy, so i smile and go find new pictures haha... somehow, i just like those cute posters, pictures... fantasy, sci fi and more... haha...
Well, though its a bad start, but i am glad it ended off quite well... but i cant deny, haha, yes for what princess said, i am still abit upset and hurt, but i chose to be happy as what kor did... sometimes in life, is just not up to us to choose nor us to control... there will still be hurts but really its how we want to respond to it.. and i am glad, i have a great angel by me, who counselled me, and inspired me to response the correct way... indeed God has been really wise to create such a great angel to be in my life... thats kor ! haha... thankz angel! hahaha... he's now not just a cat but also an angel... Ooo haha imagine a cat with halo hahaha... cute! hahha...
Remembering On|6/13/2004 12:20:00 AM|
It was evening and morning again... A brand new day...
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