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Monday, June 14, 2004
Just one morning, many interesting actually happen... woke up just 10 mins before my math lecture... i rushed to school... still rather sleepy, then mathai came in... tried switching on the computer... succeeded, but.... but... haha... the projector is faulty.. Hey Hey... thats great news hahaha... i wasnt in such a mood for studies anyway haha... then he ask us to try 2 examples... those chicken feet type and yup finished... i wonder what he's going to do next... suddenly.. " alrite, i give you all a break, go have have a drink and be back by 9.15am"... the whole lecture go.... " HUH???".... are we seeing mathai or his twin brother... mathai actually call us to go for break... we were very shocked... i was a front seater and he was looking at how big was my mouth... haha... i was like still sleepy, then suddenly.."WHAT?? AM I DREAMING??? WAKE UP WAKE UP..." but its not dream its happening... wow... miracle ahhahaa... truly, there can be miracle, when you believe ahahah...
Then after lecture went for PW tutorial... we're waiting for the other arthur to approve our proposal.... the atmosphere was cold.. silent.. creepy... the kind of anxiety, the kind of ice in the air... Brrr... then arthur said.. " approved" we go, "YEAHHHHHHHHHH!!!! FINALLY!!!!" ahhaha... the ice just melted immediately hahaha...
But then it marks the end... its time to go home... bored i shld say... though i still have alot of work, but i dont feel like doing... i smsed kor, asking him is he going home and stuff.. well he reply nah, he is going for lunch with his other brothers... well... awwww, so nice... then think again.. eh... good for him, so i just reply, Mmm gd gd... seriously its good... i mean he get to go out with his brothers.... me erm... alrite friends, its either i didnt even know where are they, if not i didnt really know who i shld go out with anyway, i am not very attach or close to my friends.... talking about my sibling... some overseas... some disappeared, some going for lunch if not attached, some more anti social... which means.. i dont know where are all of them... so means alone again... sometimes i wonder do i exist in any world... but well, at least i do in dreamworld... supreme virtual... but well... got to get used to that... virtual world is numb and unrealistic, yet i guess it actually can boost me up... i mean thats the most perfect world you could ever had...
Alrite, i shld say i am not those type made to slack... serious, i must be doing something all the time... i was tired of work, and say haha today, lets rest... but i notice.. i have nothing to do for leisure... i do not have games, neither do i know what to do... surfed the net, but in just moments i am bored again... thus i just walk around, then lie on my bed, next moment... i saw the clouds, the mist... it was a good rest counting on the fact that i am sleeping late almost all nights and waking early in the morning... Hhaha... at least today i got recharge... then i went searching for some movies to watch... yeah, X men... looks interesting and i have Xmen and Xmen 2.. so i watched both... Mmm though there's not much link between the two, but well... better than nothing... so just watched... i notice... Mmmm scott summers actually is quite handsome haha and the ice man tooo... but the best is that jean grey of Xmen looks pretty yeah hahaa... and rouge in Xmen is cute too... but they changed the actors in Xmen 2.. jean no longer that pretty any more... Awwwwww.... Come on, i am still a guy, i still look at girls alrite hhahaa....
Then i go doing a little of my work.. my math tutorial that is... bored by the numbers and the lines... Yawn... then suddenly, "click!" ... my pen tip broke, and the ink just flowed out... oh my, i cant continue with my work... i have no other pen... or rather the other pens are working and drafting pens not for final work.. but, i take this signal as the end of work, time to relax, again .... Hahha... so i just went to pray, then meddle around with things and haha now here i am blogging hehe...
Well, this is something i forgot to blog about all these while.. in the classic of King Arthur, he was known as king of camelot... thats at least what the website says... i was reading up on the 6th century britain and so happen is the arthurian empire... so arthur is everywhere... but king of camelot... haha for most councillor i think you wld have caught why was i so amusing by the term king of camelot.. now now, in the 6th century, arthur's kingdom is in camelot, a part of britain... now does theword camelot sound familiar to you??? yup, camelot@JJ haha... i was very amused by it... 6th century arthur is in camelot@britain.... 21st century arthur is in camelot@jj hahaha.... what a coincidence, i think its more than just conincidence... haha...
Also i actually thought about my external family today, my brother and sisters... i mean i seldom talk about most of them... cept for silvest that is... haha, but the rest dont get jealous... its just the time spent... i mean i have friends of course, then sibling in christ, and even closer, my siblings... friends of mine usually are those hi and bye type... quite low level so i have nothing much to say either... then comes to sibling in christ, i am like having the same encounter with every single one, nothing realyl that special to talk about.. i can, but then my blog wld be so memorised... now for my siblings, actually i have alot of say but...
alrite, of course silvest without much say, is the closest to me among all my siblings, but yes, still quite a distance... but lets talk about more... well, say sis hannah... Mmmm, usually, she is either just so busy, otherwise she is with someone... and i didnt want to disturb them... they already cant be together, and i still go and disturb them, i think very bad... so i didnt.. which means end up not really spending time with her... what about sis vivien... worse... i think i didnt get to see her in months now... sis rachel yes, we meet we talk... but haha usually she is quite strict and we talk more about work... usually serious subjects... bro chean xiu, yeah... i was shocked when he said he wanted to be my brother, till now i am still... but somehow... i try but somehow, theres still something in between, i dont know what... but definitely something is in between which actualyl hinders me to go closer... Mmmm dont know, perhaps age... notice the rest are JC2... in fact for silvest cept for distance, nothing else is in between... nothing is hindering... then another one whom i love a lot too... brother chee chang, but erm... acutally i am quite hurt, and didnt really talk much... but in my heart of course i still care for him a lot... but i think to love is to be vulnerable... the 3 i love a lot, the 3 i got most hurt from... but from the 3, 2 hurts me even more i guess... yup... for chang... Mmmm he is lets be truthful quite anti social.. he is usually alone... if from a distance.. erm, he is a bit quite cold... but get to know him better, he is actually very nice... really... he has his caring and loving side, but he seldom show it... its in him, but something is keeping him back...that alone hurts me quite a bit... i mean if he is really that bad, forget it... but no, he has the love in him yet its not showing... same as silvest... its in them... but they didnt really show it... the sensitivity is not there... for silvest i think, he realised... but chang i really dont know... for silvest i am confident his sensitivity is developing... his girlfriend especially is training him... haha.. the presence alone is enough to train him... but i think the discerning of spirit is one thing we all need to learn.. we need to know when to love, when to care, when to sympathise, when to joke, when to do things... but on the whole, my prayers will always be on them... keeping them covered with protection, health, wisdom and excellence..
As for my princess.. what will be will be... somethings i agree with kor, no point being upset about, like as if it will help... might as well be happy...
Remembering On|6/14/2004 01:09:00 PM|
Moving into the new day...
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