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Tuesday, June 15, 2004
Mmmm morning... boring lectures... then tutorials... blessed that time flies really, then we have meetings... oh yes... finally somebody remembered there's such thing as general exco... i thought there's only the president and the 3 coms... hear the sarcasm... but finally, cca com remembered us... oh thank you cca.. then welfare says collect $10 for them.. alrite.. every com head collect $10 from your members.. then siying said that dont know who says those who paid 12 need to pay 8 only and stuff like that then pj argue back saying dont know what again, me and nurul were both very confused.. in the end i shouted at them i said just pay 10, and they still argue what this unfair that unfair... i shouted again this time i am harsh... i said, "SHUT UP! JUST PAY 10! YI HAO I WILL DEAL WITH HIM LATER! JUST SHUT UP!..." but obviously in their mind, there's no such things as treasurer... i gave up talking to them... worse still dawn adds in... i tell you i really felt like telling her to shut up too... i felt like blasting at her... when i need silence... she adds on to the noise... seriously.... i dont know what to say about her... but i try to not blast her off... sometimes i really felt that my council is really so divided... and yet some dare to say, see our seniors... see the 23rd... i think yes... look at the 23rd... we are no where better... seriously... everyone last time say.. we are a team... we are what... now... i tell you its all crap... jess can ask marcom when can the banners and publicity be up... what they say??? "design already, you go ask welfare... they printing..." what? they printing you cant help is it??? in fact i felt that marcom shld go and print your own stuff... what everything welfare... and welfare... wow our com this our com that... what now souvenirs, next banner... why dont next investiture booklet and also the walk in then internal external invitation... so free rite... so much strength to do so many things rite... and not all you know... with so many things in hand, they still want to say how much funds to collect.. and how to collect... woah.. welfare = marcom + treasury + cca + secretary + president + vice president.... i think its time we have a new cca call welfare... aint i rite ???
alrite... now, there's just so many confusion that goes on.. again and again many tried to do treasury job... that makes my job very very difficult... i mean first nobody update me anything... they will only tell me when they need cash and how they tell me.. they just say i want u to collect how much and didnt even tell me for what reason... and many on their own already set on me collecting the money... yet i was not informed at all... saddening... and worse still i have people adding on to my problem, there messing things even furthur... i couldnt take it any longer... i cant contain the fire any more... i blasted.. i flared up... yet again... its my princess...i turned sarcastic... i turned angry... what a jerk aint i??? but i explain to her, what i am going through... and i explain to her, what i truly feel... and i feel painful... i feel like crying... its my princess i am scolding...not any others... the many negative things have influenced me and i admit i am weak... i fallen for it... i bothered... by the things around council.. how invisible i am... also the inferiority in me... i hesitated, i draw back... why ??? my princess is 10/10 to me... yet am i even 9.. i think by looks of current situation... not even 4 i deserve...but blessed i am... i have a brother always here by me caring for me in his unique ways... whatever way he used... i thank God, for even the smallest thing he did counts... if not for what he has done, i may not have pull it so far.. he is truly one God blessed blessing to me... thanks Kor! thanks!
Remembering On|6/15/2004 05:02:00 PM|
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