If Dreams can be a Reality...

ME!!!

Arthur Goh
Minister of Mugger Affairs,
Diplomat,
Countryside,
Singapore,
Jurong Junior College,
Syndicate of Cambridge

Government of the people, by the people, for the people, shall not perish from the Earth.
-Abraham Lincoln

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Tuesday, July 13, 2004

Not bad the last time i blogged was on the 9th and todae is the 13th... Mmmm... Well i didnt really get to blog and wasnt in the mood to blog anyway...

Mmmm i have been very very very very very very very very very very very very very very busy... from morning 6 wake up work till 12+, 1 sometimes even 3+, but still work dont seem to be completed... i mean yes, theres quite abit of work.. and i wasnt in the right mood to do them anyway.. and those who worked with me close enough would know that my work performance really depend on my mood one... when i am in the right mood... i finish my work fast and good... but when i am down or feeling terrible.. it will take forever for me to do even one simple piece of work... and still complete it without much of a standard... and thats what happened in this investiture... i mean its still my dry and down period but i have so many things to attend to... really... its horrible... but i still did drag it till now... many times really i just want to give up... but then again... i just say.. i will go on... even if the sky falls, i will still stand and infact i wil lift the heavens up... and with that i drag and drag... when i felt this heaven is getting too heavy... the high one up there just wisphers... I will make a way... go on... and heaven became sort of lighten a little... many things which i never which would happen happened... people whom i love just seems to fail me... and the disappointments are really tremendous... even right now thinking of some of the things that happened... My eyes are still tainted with tears... note tainted.. it doesnt go off that fast... the hurt i received was great... last time i got hurt before but this time... its way greater than any other time... it just stunned me... and the other thing that is rather saddening is that i fallen for someone whom i shouldnt... and i got so deep i cant seem to pull out... but then again... i dont really see much of a hope in it... at times, she is just so cute that i cant help it but felt like giving her a hug and a peck on the cheeks... but i know what i can do and what i cant... she is to me very precious... we tend to go home very late these daes... and i cant bear to leave till i know that she is escorted home or whatever... with all these bothering me, i just hide into my own world shun from the others... but such life cannot go on... even when the heaven falls... as long as i have my breath this kingdom will not perished... but will live and stand holy and righteous eternally... certainly God heard my cries... yet man dont... usually i mean people are either too busy if not cant be bothered to hear me anyway... sometimes not i want to live in solitude, in a loner life, but i am forced to really... i mean even if one dae i really end up becoming a bachelor... what can i say.. i will just say may i be blessed... yup..

its only the start... its only the stepping into the office and i am starting to feel like leaving... i am starting to wish that i could join the JC2s... my emphasis at the end of the day is still my academic work... i am still aiming a doctor or maybe a lecturer but importantly i am aiming to study high perhaps to PhD...

Well... on top of all the buziness... i remembered... one of my sister's birthday.. but i remembered it quite last minute like 3-4 days before.. i didnt really plan for anything.. then i just convict myself.. dont care how much work i must still go down at least to the nearest place to find something for her.. but then again... must know i am a terrible shopper... i dont know how to shop... and i dont usually do either.. then i really dont know what birhtday gift to give a person... then i just try to focus ans think what is good for her and i chosen her quiet spirit... i think the name is correct.. with all the work... somethings just slip off my mind very easily...but i remember its a purple book... and i found the content to be quite nice and quite easily digest-able... remember i do like to pick up anything and just analyse...i can spend hours staring at one thing just to find out and discover things for myself.. including prose... i just liekto analyse prose... yup... a little eccentric but thats me.. an analyser... and now i also must say i am a very unpredictable person... i just dont like others to dictate how i do something.. i will just take on something and find my own ways to do it... and i often do things which is not norm and not predicted by many... but well... sis vivien told me she is very touched by the present haha... well, she is my sis how could i forget right... its just that with that short time.. i really cant come up with anything better... i am so happy that she actually enjoyed it...

on the whole, well... i m still not fully back... but i am slowly picking up... but i am glad i got closer to many of my council mate through some chats and sharing... predominantly siying (Mdm li), alice, weijie and Wendy hahaha... yup.. but notice... its always the other gang.. usually not the other more said to be cool and funky group... but well i am glad i am the way i am.. i dont need to be funky i dont need to be cool.. i just need to be myself... i am still beautiflly made.. for my calling.. for my purpose... though she dont like this style of guys... but its really just too bad.. i wont say change my style just to become her dream guy... then i would not be myself but an image of her expectations... i will only change my weakness... but not the who i am...

Remembering On|7/13/2004 11:25:00 PM| After so long...