If Dreams can be a Reality...

ME!!!

Arthur Goh
Minister of Mugger Affairs,
Diplomat,
Countryside,
Singapore,
Jurong Junior College,
Syndicate of Cambridge

Government of the people, by the people, for the people, shall not perish from the Earth.
-Abraham Lincoln

Past Scrolls...

June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005

The Others...

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

Mmmm.... great that my brother is once again back in business... but sigh... for me i havent got back to business.. i mean for many i think you might think that i am... but seriously i have not.. but in crowds... i dont want to be a spoiler... so i still keep my cool and my smiles... though sometimes its really hard to keep it...

today alone... well... i was ultra busy.... working here and there like a bee... thought that would take my mind off some things for a while... but nah... somethings just stays on... i still wasnt able to truly smile... what exactly happen... Mmm not many know.. in fact only me and kor knows... in fact one big part of it concerns him... its a hard time... troubled... pain... its plain hardship its like the whole heaven collapsing on me... seriously .. many times i wanted to give up... i want to just weep... but i didnt i just stay on.. hang on... pull on... drag on... but still one msg is all it takes for me to just cry... yup...one sms... just one... after pulling and dragging for so many weeks.. one sms... and all just flowed like a fountain... And imagine at that moment i am talking to siying.. i practically just talk nonsense... she will get what i meant.. i wasnt able to compose myself at all... sometimes i really hope things to go the way i want it to... but many times it just wont... sigh... its actually quite difficult for me to accept that... i am still learning to... and in this period of time.. what made matter worse was that it was a period of coldness...its like me migrating into the arctic... theres not a single bit of warmth... i am already in pain.. yet the wound was aggravated by frost bite... its really terrible and horrible.. but i kept going saying it will soon be over... even the ice cap in the north pole melts... the day will come... move on... stay strong... and something just inspired me... God will make a way... indeed.. somethings are starting to take shape... but some...

well... one after another... it all happen.. i just felt that i am getting more and more detach from the world... i am getting more and more detach from my brothers and sisters... somehow its all straying apart... even between me and dawn... sigh... but sometimes my feelings i cant hide... like today alone.. she injure her neck somehow... and seriously i saw her i was very heartache... howi hope God would just lay His hands on me and say all power has been given to you go heal her... its like though i know somethigns are too far fetch to even dream of... but i stilll wish to see the smiles and her safe and protect and strong of course... sigh... dont talk bout that already.. my heart enough crack lines already...

then now... xin min, she resigned from her council rank... i mean i really dont know what to say... for many of these 2nd intakers.. from the beginning when we have election and stuff like that.. i have been with them.. from the start till now i have been following up with them... some didnt make it but we still continue to contact each other... some who made it... i just hope for the best for them... for xin min to resign is something i dont wish it to happen... but since its her choice.. may she be blessed... even for me all i can tell her is... stay strong... i mean really not many know that i am going through a very hard period now... its still not very good but its improving... better than it was when it first started...but only 3 knows it... the rest dont... so i can still keep that sort of cool and tell her... for every mountain we have to climb... for every hardship we have to endure... even if the sky falls we must still stand strong to hold it up... as i tell her that.. the thing that appeared in my mind is this whole period which i am still enduring... i enter the back of lt5.. i know i cant keep my smiles any longer... i actually bang my head on the door... to just keep cool and put the smiles again before turning around...

sigh... sigh... some pains even the strongest painkiller in the world cant kill the pain..

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