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Sunday, December 05, 2004
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Mmm... once again... my soul is troubled... well, hours or rather days ago, i was there so happy, happy that i got closer to a dear friend... but however, sometimes really i wonder, why i somehow seems to spark relationship fast, but also the relationship dun seem to maintain at that peak for long... of coz i felt its me... the problem lies with me... maybe i am juz too pesky... too irritating.. i duno... i mean like cept God who else wld really know... but certainly... fear of losing this relationship shrouded me... but of coz, i am still on my way to combat it... perhaps i am juz over sensitive... or perhaps its juz history haunting me... i duno... but one thing i know is, if this relationship meant nothing to me, i wldnt have tried fighting to keep it, i wld have just let it pass... but i cldnt... and also wldnt... however, i am toning down, perhaps, yup its going a bit too fast... just like a rubber band, if its stretch at too fast a speed, the band will snap... and rite now, before it snaps, i am loosening it... perhaps all these years of training in a loner institute had made me lost wat is called interpersonal... but i really hope, now is not too late... i really hope... but i wldnt know...
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Remembering On|12/05/2004 05:55:00 PM|
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