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Thursday, February 10, 2005
Hmm.. had 2 paracetamol tablets, plenty of water, tons of sleep, now i am alrite... Temperature back to 36.8... its really great to see my temperature decrease from 38.0 to 36.8... But anyway it did haha...
Hmm... Well while i was on the bed... i realised how much i missed my brothers... Yup Yup... At the same time i was evaluating the relationships that i have... Get used to me... I can be thinking about more than 10 things at one go... thats y when some of you talk to me i din response, thats cause i am thinking of things... mind too pre-occupied, not ignoring you all... anyway... back to topic... well then i realised actually theres a clear distinction between the relationships that i have... It also kind of correspond to the closeness with me... Say we use the level marking scheme to describe the realtionships haha, sorry too obsessed with history but its the best analogy to describe this... Coincidently ahha it nicely fits into 5 level as the LMS is... Alrite only history students will truly understand what i meant...
Level 1: Acquaintanceship
Well i supposed the large majority falls under this category... There are many pple who come and go and we often hi and bye to each other, but believe it or not, for some i dont even know who are they... i dont even know their names, but of coz if u hi or bye to me, naturally i will hi and bye back to u... thats me...
Level 2: Friends
These are the acquaintances whom i talk to more often, nt very often but often enough to build a basic friendship... I normally tend to hit off in a conversation pretty easily, only for some, simply nothing to chat, otherwise for most of the others, they actually became friends and no longer just acquaintance...
Level 3: Closer friends
Now this category is much narrower... These are friends whom i talk even more often, and not just a basic friendship... To this group of friends, i do start to share more of my thoughts and feelings, but of course still pretty much reserved... I am much more open to them though compared to the previous 2 levels...
Level 4: Semi Brothers and sisters
This is a complicated category cause, to say i am more open to them, yes i am, but you will be amazed, to most of them i am not even talking to them... but somehow its juz that readiness in opening up to them that i put them in this category... was pretty hard trying to fit them somewhere above or below... so end up i tot might as well put it here... after all there aint any levels at first, but just to illustrate, i decided to use LMS, so i thought of classifying the relationships.. But anyway to these friends, i still called them brothers and sisters on paper (thats means only when comes to msg and writing) but along the way, some actually kind of, to be crude, slide down the level... As i am describing this category, 2 person striked my mind, Yong Hui and Kevin... they are not the one who slide down the level btw... Infact i am still in pretty good terms with them but guess we're busy and stuff, our relationship kind of stagnant at that level... But for the 2 of them, great potential of moving up to level 5 anytime... serious anytime... And among all my juniors i guess Kevin is the one i dote the most yup... But to other juniors, dun be sad haha...
Level 5: Brothers
Now this is the one that i am going to elaborate more... Now this group of friends are the closest to me, infact i sometimes felt that they are closer than mere friends... For some i felt closer than friends, like real blood tied brother... I can verbally and comfortably call them "brother"... and they are the ones i love the most... alrite i know i am supposed to love all, and i do, but i cant avoid it, there are definitely some whom i love more than the others right, that made me not God... Yup whenever i have something joyous or along the streets i saw something interesting, they are the first i would think of... These are also the ones that i am most open to... at times i wanted to hide somethings from them for now, to keep them in suspense, but i would end up telling them every thing... Normally i cant lie, but to them i am absolutely truthful... But of course, they are close to me, dont mean i am close to them... Yup... Who then are the few people who are in this... the 2 prominent one that i guess you guys would come to know would be Andre and Timothy(My church one)... Gabriel once too, now also, but then, nowadaes i am pretty conscious about what i tell him, so by the time i crafted out want i want to say, i cant remember what i want to say... In any case, brothers, hey love you guys a whole lot!!!
Well as you can see from level 4, there may be a fixed category, but theres certainly no fixed placing... its pretty fluid, what do i mean... Well, you can be in level 1 now, but if our relationship should grow, you might just be the next whom i call brother... no one is fixed in any category... the categories only indicates how close one is to me... its not like a caste system or wat... Even for those in level 1, though i may not really know you, but when u truly need help, surely i would still lend a helping hand...
Alrite alrite, back to bed, and before you know it, its morning again and school again, everything shall be back to normal...
Remembering On|2/10/2005 11:37:00 PM|
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