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Sunday, June 26, 2005
Bye Bye St John Island
In case some of you do not know, well, on friday, the whole Students' Council (J1s and J2s) set off for Council Camp in St John Island... All was pretty fine, the weather was fine... Games haha, alright, but of course could be better...
Alright, lets be truthful, i have no idea how should i describe this camp... is it good? yes and no... Is it bad? yes and no... but one thing for sure, i caught a glimpse of how the next council might be like... Whether confident or not, its time to step down... its time for a renewal of leadership... And i m all ready for it...
In this camp, well, i m really happy and glad to see my council coming together, playing, slacking, eating, working, crying and weeping together... I m also really glad to see the true feelings flowing out of a lot of the councillors, i m really v glad... For myself, well, yes, there are moments(quite a few) i felt really foreign and totally as if in the wrong place, bt i must say, i m nonetheless still included... well, perhaps i have left their world so long that i became foreign to that land... bt they have still included me and you could say, at least even if i m just a guest, i m treated v well... very good hospitality... so is that foreign feeling caused by them??? No its not... they have never changed, they were and they are... among themselves i believe many relationships have grew stronger... its pretty evident... but it was i who have kind of left them... lets be fair, i was the one who wanted to keep things at the surface... so now yup, its still at the surface... am i sad about it??? not exactly... I mean many of you know, i m quite a person who can work alone pretty well, so can i work v well in a group, juz a matter if i want to... I can be a loner, so can i be social... When i m truly social, i m, i play and interact equally as wild and all... For me, well its always good to have someone around... who wouldnt want?? but without, i wont die, i wont thus became depress or dead... i would still be the who i am... Alrite i m deviating from the topic... well... among us the 24th council, well we had our own time to chat things out... well, not so much of wat i expected... well, at first i was pretty excited to share.. but well somehow... the mood dampens, and slowly in my heart i know wat i want to say, but i kind of lost those words... yup... moreover, i guess many are juz bored of me speaking... rather that i dont.. and i guess i should stay silent... but on the whole, i m glad the rest enjoy it... thats all abhi's and kelvin's wish... so is it mine... and me??? generally yup i enjoyed it too...
Well i shall talk more in future...
This is Hon. Gen. Treasurer, 24th Students' Council signing off and passing the baton, rather the file...
Next Hon. Gen Treasurer, 25th Students' Council: Jason Koh Jie Sheng
Dear junior, do well... I havent done very well, so there are alot of rooms and space where you can surpass me easily...
Remembering On|6/26/2005 07:53:00 PM|
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Hair Standing day...
Alrite haha i am just too excited so must say something... Well i was trying to memorise my chemistry today... then the weather is serious hot... and my hair was kind of long... then i gave up... i told my mum... i am going for a hair cut...
Well i took my bio notes along ( i have bio this friday)... then all i did was, "uncle, this time, cut my hair shorter... last time was too long... then spike if u want to, the rest just layer..." he said alright... and of course if you want to let people cut, you must trust them.. so i kind of didnt bother with what he did with my hair.. i read my notes... and he cut, then he just told me he was going to rinse my hair... then back to my seat, and i carried on reading while he started styling my hair...
Well soon after, he said done... I looked up... i just went...
OH MY GOD!!! What happened???
This is even serious than my last hair cut... Perhaps, to some you might say, huh alright what... Looks normal... Oh yes, the hair cut is normal, but its not normal on me... i never had my hair standing, even the most recent hair cut (which was supposed to be standing) is not that 'standing', now....
WOW!!! Goodness... But i have tamed it down abit now...
Anyway, let me show you what happened...
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Top view of the front of my hair now...
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Back view of the front of my hair now...
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Backview of my hair now...
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Look at the crown on my head... Not quite the crown i expected but haha...
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Front view of my hair then...
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The top view of my hair then...
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The backview of my hair then...
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Look at the difference man haha...
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I think i need not explain...
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See my hair touching my ceiling light...
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Haha i think i need not comment...
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Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Day 1: 6pt Earthquake
Well... today's maths paper.. as many of you know, i am pretty suxy in math.. After doing the paper, well, C,D or E... i dont think i will fail, bt also neither will i get an A or B... Well, thats quite some grades huh haha... But today's paper did boost my morale to some extent, despite the low grade... Well i did put in quite an effort for Integration... and guess what... Integration was a breeze today... its the other topics which kind of quaked my world today... But at least i know all the buildings which has integration as foundation, stayed erected... However, the building which built on Numerical Analysis toppled... Why?? I dont wat graph to draw.... so... well... ahha on the whole, low grades will not kill me... at least i know wheres my mistake and i know where to move on... i am getting a clearer and clearer picture, where to get my st As now... yup!!!
Chemistry: A
Math: A
Biology: A
General Paper: A1
Not a prob! here i come... Wait for me...
Remembering On|6/21/2005 12:52:00 PM|
Saturday, June 18, 2005
Delirious!!!
Well finally my dear Brother Yihao got his long awaited letter... The CPSS letter... CPSS is a computerised pilot selection test(which i kind of flung it, Sigh...)... Finally, he is a step closer to his dreams... He is now so so so happy haha... His dreams of being in the sky.... How beautiful!!! Awww imagine the sky... the clouds... the morning light... the starry sky... My God! What beauty!!!
Well though i would probably never get to fly a plane again... yup, perhaps this lifetime, which is the one and only one... But well its alright... Of course, disappointment does sets in... i really love the sky... But if he gets in, i am equally as happy and i am equally as proud... it really doesnt have to be me flying the plane in order for me to feel proud... yup... i told brother this too... i am waiting for the day when i am in my business class cabin, and over the speaker, a familiar voice saying, "I am Cpt Lim Yi Hao... I would be your pilot for today... Hope you would enjoy the flight with us!" Better still, i am some minister(the prime one?? haha) going overseas for some diplomatic trip, and i think we do have this air force one-like plane specially for the government, and of course only top notch pilots can fly it... and who is that pilot who flies me there??? Of course the top notch pilot, my brother, Lim Yi Hao hahaha... Either of the senarios, i would be so proud to be in that plane, and i know i will definitely smoothly get to my destination... Totally no doubts about it... i am really waiting and anticipating for such a day to come...
"Brother, do well! I know you can... Dreams are for us to catch... I know its your deepest dream, fight for it, catch it... Even virtual can become reality (virtual reality), Dreams will also be a reality... You have a great passion to be a pilot... Dont just let the passion burn it you, but let it burn out of you!!! I am really waiting to sit in your plane, the plane flew by you and see the magnificent sky... (P.S. I only have at most 8 decades to go, pls be quick alright! hahaa)"
Hahah so much for him, yeah cause its such a joyous thing, i definitely must blog about it... But also in mind are also my 2 other brothers... Actually i wanted to post a blog only on my family haha... but i still hunting for the photos... i seldom bring camera so i normal take photos using others' camera, and often i forgot whose camera, so need to hunt...
Back to topic... Well, pilot, thats for Brother Yihao, what about my 2 other dear brothers??? Well Gabriel is currently erm not a parachutist, but nonetheless parachute-d 3 times... Very cool right!! imagine floating in the sky... Coooool... But he has this strong premonition that he will probably get into infantry... Haha... And Andre is looking forward to being an Inspector in the police force... His build is also not bad, actually quite nicely build haha imagine him one day like Vincent Ng in "Heartlanders" that might just be him... I would be so proud to say, " My brother? Oh you mean which one?? That pilot who conquer the blue sky? Or that valour who is going to be driving all our aggressors away with all sorts of ingenious strategies and might?? Or that peacekeeper, who controls the crowd and calms the civilians in time of crisises, when the rest of us are there fighting to protect our borders???"
Incidently, i realised, WHERE AM I??? i am not in the sky, i am not in at the frontline, and i am not going to be a policeman... where am i?? civilian??? Wait haha continue waiting... How can i let all my brothers go fight a war in their different ways and me here with the civilians in some bomb shelter eating maggi mee... Lets just say, yes i really love the sky, but pilot is not my ultimate dream, i mean if i can fly a plane thats great, but if not its alright... In my life so far, there are only 3 things which i am really passionate for and i will work towards it, even if i dont get there, at least near there... haha... No matter what, my dream is to be a doctor, one with healing hands... Apparently now, my grades wont really bring me anywhere near that, but well see... if i dont get to be a doctor, i will still heal, bt of course not by surgery, but by hope, by peace, and by love... I will still heal, the heart and the soul... Not all doctors heal the body... Also i aspire to be one of the ministers, best education or foreign affairs... I dont want to be the president, but Prime Minister, Hmmm haha not a bad idea... haha... Well people around me knows right, i like politics quite alot hahah... but then i normally dont get time to study them... Thats why i also striving to get into 1st choice: medicine, 2nd: double major (political sci + Life sci)... I really wish i could one day, i could be this minister who goes out to the people, to live among the people, and work among the people, listen to the people, and also be in the parliament to fight for the people... One quote by Abraham Lincoln really inspires me...
"Government of the people, by the people, for the people, shall not perish from the Earth. - Lincoln"
I really really like this quote... and i know right now, i am still not very well like by the people to actually meet the section on "by the people" but compared to the past, hey, i am already not as arrogant hahaha... Slowly things will change... yup yup... This is also partly link to my third... a diplomat... i really like the idea of going from country to country, meeting people, in this case officials, discussing on political affairs and strategic alliances... i believe we need deterence, but i believe more on diplomacy... not conducting social studies lessons here, but yes... i believe in solving things through relationship and the words from mouth, in other words, peace talks... sound like woodrow wilson huh haha... actually his 14-points are not really bad, to some extent i felt noble but too idealistic thats all... but at least the motivation is there... I dont like violence... haha... Yup yup...
So Brothers i shall leave the aerospace, the borders and the heartland to you guys, me i shall be part of the strategic alliances, helping with foreign affairs and the peace talks, all the diplomatic talks... We will fight the war... Eh quite a good mix arh haha... we have deterence and diplomacy... Oh we are missing in the seas... Air land no seas... oh nvm someone else will do it... get weijie!! ahhaha no heights, no dogs, no ants hahahaha... Let him hear this, he's going to kill me man haha...
Right now all these seems like some mere words, but we may never know it might just be a reality in time to come... the keyword here is: Anticipate....
Brothers love you all a whole lots man!!! hahaha... And one person who like totally out of the picture... Dawn you too hahaha... dont jealous, i never forget you haha...
Remembering On|6/18/2005 09:58:00 PM|
Friday, June 17, 2005
What a day...
Well, alright, back in school, apparently to study, but hmmm supposed its not a very good day... Not much of a mood... Well started off wanting to explain the theory behind NMR, but fact is, well i felt quite sleepy, some parts i didnt even know what was i saying... Yup... I am seriously not very sure... But well, managed to grab some mood and i just ignored what i said eariler and just explained all over again... Actually, i wonder how to teach NMR, cause i realised, ya i know how to do, i know what each thing represents, but it would be of no value to others if they know what it represents, yet still not know how to use them... So i decided, alright, i had talk enough, Dawn u practice... Yup, i think she will learn better by doing so... Perhaps she might not be able to get it in the beginning bt slowly she will...
Then say its time i read my stuff too... MATHs.. sigh... i am starting to get so sick of it again... actually i always get so sick with math... Integration is like one headache, and before i solved it, well now i know i have to learn trigonometry too... Its needed in integration... Goodness.... I m fried... Gab knows hahaha... Bro saw me nodding away... i just got so tired of math... who on earth created that man... Give me so much misery... Though my life doesnt have that much misery, but does not mean i need more... Oh well... Whatever... Maths... sigh...
Anyway, today isnt jut filled with boredom and moodlessness.. There's also things which are joyous and nice... Yup! for weeks now, finally, finally i met my brothers again... Not all but 2 of them, Gab and Yihao... Really really nice seeing them again haha... Missed them alot since PreUsem... Thats like 2 wks ago?? Time flies... 2 wks already... Well Yihao appeared with tons of chem questions haha... I am more than willing to help, just that i havent been in contact with books for quite a while... its quite mind draining to start picking up my tys again... Just ask him, apparently there seemed quite a lot of questions which i cant do... why of course, how do you even get the answer while u copy the wrong number, or u add and substract wrongly... Mr Azmi is the most poor thing i guess... Very hard to be a teacher haha... Got me this kind of student, cant find answer and started calling him just to find that i made a careless mistake... He's good haha, still as patient to tell me, u have added that wrongly... Then comes Gab, he's just out of camp... And now he's back to studies... Yup thats great, but i can understand, its definitely going to be real difficult... its really not easy to transit from all fun to all mug... Brother, We will make it hahaha... somehow but WE WILL!!!
Then towards the evening, my fingers itched again.. really couldnt stand it anymore... i really got to go home... Finger exercise... thats how this new entry existed in the first place.... One real sad thing that i kind of gave up today is... joking... Goodness, yes i dont joke with riddles, i only use puns... i play with words quite often, but erm... people around me took quite a while to understand what i truly meant... thats really sad... By the time they get it and respond, everything turned cold... Saddening hahaha....
Actually now i still dont wish to study, but i guess i must... Alright then...
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Thursday, June 16, 2005
Day of Enlightenment...
Oooo... So i see... Guess what? Indeed, the excalibur is true... truth prevails...
Today i finally know the whole story behind something, some history... something i was really mad about... Some issue which made me so fuming mad that i no longer can be even 1% diplomatic... that all i would do is scold and send some sarcasms... For many of you who knows me... this is really some issue.. its really not easy to even set a spark in me... but well, something, rather, someone did... Not just a spark, but a worldwide forestfire... it had burned down several, rather a lot of forests... But well, i think its quite a good time to know about it too... if i knew it anywhere earlier... i suppose someone's ears would probably go deaf... Juniors, i am sure you know what i meant... You all heard my lectures before... and probably this same someone might be weeping away....
But well that person is certainly spared from my voice... i wont even nag... i am too tired to grudge anything so i shall not... haha... i wont... I am keeping my peace.... haha it reminded me of... I have peace by the river, i have peace by the river... alrite... bloody crap... Anyway... well, at least i know the truth... At least i know what is that knife which left such a great wound on my back... and i guess why aint i angry now that i know the truth is cause... I kind of expected it?? But back then i didnt want to assume anything.. but now i need not... but a truth... should say, i was hoping i was provened wrong... i am sure you guys know, many a times, i seems to know things... but of course, unless proven i choose to accept it as my assumptions... and i always hope some of my assumptions to be wrong.. but instead, many just became a reality.. Quite saddening actually... Alrite its a gift to be able to kind of predict, or see things beyond the surface, but seriously, sometimes i rather i not see... i rather i am a surface guy who is simple and knows nothing... At times, its really better...
Alrite enough of history..
haha... a very nice day... woke up at 0745 in aghast ahhaha... i am supposed to meet Dawn at 0800... MADNESS!!!! hahaha sorry but i have been quite a pig recently... well i changed, clean up, and grab 2 cheese cake which my mum made along with my files and everything... haha and flew to school... then well saw Dawn... i just went.. oh shit! oh shit! WHY??? cause her head was on the canteen desk.. i was there at 0815... she waited for me till she slept... Nvm... i will wake up early tml hahaha... I HOPE!!! Helped her with chemistry, at the same time read my chem and borrowed bio notes from Amanda and started reading it... Nazerah also there to lighten the mood and made studying quite an enjoyable thing...
Then lunch and all, till now still quite typical... then comes Mr Goh Chean Xiu... seriously, quite a headache... For him, i need to repeat things at least 3 times... Hey people, i know i am naggy and longwinded, but you know what.... With pple like Mr GCX... no wonder i am... pls, understand... i am always repeating things, so much so that i am becoming some old grandfather nagging non stop... haha it was so easy coaching Dawn, though she got tired quite easily... But thats fine... its when you have pple who has so many questions which erm, most of the time due to lack of attentiveness that you just couldnt help it but...
But really a very nice day... its been quite a while since i actually stepped into the council room, and i think quite a while i have chatted with councillors other than my brothers... its very nice... they are very nice people... very fun people... ahha at least Amanda and Naz are... GCX??? alright... nice too... cause without him, i guess i wld still probably be like last time, a person who will never repeats... And a person who will blast easily... Infact juniors, i think if you are working with me now, you would realised that i no longer scold... no longer as sarcastic... Hhaha i think all my JC friends are probably going, huh?? Arthur?? Sarcastic?? He scolds??? Yes i do... very often... and very loud... and certainly, sour and bitter with spices... its that sarcastic... juniors, dont you just agree hahaha...
Theres a longer night to go... I believe its going to be just as great...
Remembering On|6/16/2005 08:59:00 PM|
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
The Shortlived Joy...
Well, well, it seemed like only yesterday that i was grinning from end to end... Well.. for that short period of time i was really very happy.. deep down, i was just simply delirious, i smiled and laugh over everything...
But the greatest fear has now became a reality... I was questioning back then, how long will the smiles stay?? 1week? 1mth?? or 1 yr??? True enough... I have lost my smiles AGAIN... yes... apparently losing my smiles became a norm... especially in recent mths...
What can i say?? I missed the sky... Yup... i failed my pilot test... Disappointed?? Oh yeah, you bet... But of course, for those of you who knows me... disappointment is not enough to kill me... i have been disappointed time and again... failure is nothing to me... i just grief a bit and there i am rising up higher than i m now... hard to make me fall... every fall is a chance to rise higher...
But well i must say, God really has blessed me well though i didnt get to be in the air... At least i have such great brothers there to encourage me not to be discouraged... not just this incident but many others too... Especially affairs of the heart... they often told me not to be discouraged, bt ok when comes to bgr matters... erm i dont even have 'encourage' so how to be 'discourage'... Bt nonetheless, they are just there... so nice, aint they??? now you know why i love them so much ahaha...
But of coz, when one is down, you naturally have in mind a couple of pple you would like to hear from... Me likewise... well, i have heard from most whom i wld like to hear from cept 2... yup cept 2... one duno busy with what... the other, i cldnt even get to her... ya..
BUT, for those who think this this is the end of Arthur... wait continue waiting... i m preparing for A's.. Now i m rushing for the train to the political science and life science faculty... Wait and see... I will get there....
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Tuesday, June 14, 2005
1 WEEK....
That's all i have...
That's all i got...
Make it or break it...
It all depend on this 1 week...
Standing by the window,
Staring at the morning light which pierced through the dusky night sky...
How beautiful...
How manificient...
Something that cannot be felt by touch, but by the heart...
Yet, with such immersed power,
That illuminated the whole heavenly sky,
And the pastures, and everything around us which we often took for granted...
As it broke the horizon...
The light declared,
"A New Day!!! A New Day!!!"
But i gloomed,
"A New Day... A New Day..."
It just reminded me that i am nearing my midyears... Guess there's something in life that we can't escape... But i am so extremely unprepared... How am i going to squeeze all those facts, those theories into my head??? i don't have the foldings of Albert Enistein's brain, nor that of some president's scholars...
Took my mug, made myself a cup of tea and off to my table... As i always do, prayed, opened my book "The Gospel according to Jesus" and started reading...
Why am i relying on my own strength???
Why am i letting my flesh take control???
Shouldn't i be disciplining my flesh???
Why am i still lazing around???
Just then, an inspiration came, "The hand of the diligent will rule, But the lazy man will be put to forced labor. - Prov 12:24" No wonder i am worried... No wonder i m anxious... I am no longer ruler my work, but a forced labourer of failure...
At this moment, it seemed as though a second morning light had touched ground... My grounds... Its like the fused light bulb lighting up again...
I am...awakened??
I guess so...
I looked to my pencil, "Pencil, we'll do it, won't we??"
I opened up my math revision exercise book, flipped to vectors... Question one...
My pencil just hovered above it... It just refused to write anything... More like, it didnt know what to write... I stared hard at the question... The question kept calling, "DO ME!!! DO ME!!!" But... but... I can't... i know nuts of what to do... How i hope the hovering of my pencil is equivalent to that of Genesis 1:1... Like how God hovered over the waters... and when He said let there be light... there is light... and He saw it was good... If that's happening to me now... WoWw... midyrs a breeze... Hovering of my pencil, and next let there be the answer... there is answer... and everyone saw it was good... But let's just say be realistic, it will never happen, God won't allow it... He would rather i fail and learn something from it, than to help me and i stay a weak soldier...
" Question... Don't be cocky... I WILL CONQUER YOU... even before the scent of weekend..."
"Midyears... You are NO THREAT... I RULE... You are CONQUERED, OVERCAME!!!"
Remembering On|6/14/2005 12:20:00 AM|
Saturday, June 11, 2005
Ooo... Its been quite loooooonnnnnggggg while since i last blog-ged huh?! haha...
April... its now June... Well better than never...
Hmmm... so much had happened, and i cant exactly remember everything... But as i was looking through the past blogs, i am sure glad those gloomy periods were over... Haha, yup yup!!! After all that had happened and everything that we'd been through, everything's back to normal again... or hasn't it??
Haha... Must have watched too much "Behind the Da Vinci Code"... Well, me and my brothers (dre, gab, yh) are back again... And also what about Dawn??? yeah, we are also now at peace... now we are talking and joking again... a very very good sign haha... And as pencil marks fade through time, so are some feelings erased by the clock...
Well, life has always been that busy... Day in day out... work work and more work... wonder when will i get to do things which i really like... But well guess that's life!! Of course, how could rebel like me conform to such boring routines... Life indeed gets real boring at times... and really its 'gets' not 'got'... cant wait for midyrs to be over... This is the foundation... Lets say we build it well and we might be able to walk out of boredom???
This is the 1.5 weeks that i am back from pre U sem... well, many nice things happened, many new and nice friends made... No wonder its call New Engagement, New Opportunties.... But well, as i always complain, not just pre U sem, but also many other projects held by my college... Well.. the decorations are a bit too childish... I know Leow would probably say 'Positive Attitude~~"... yeah... but erm, could we go a little more say... Upper level??? I kind of felt like i am back in kindergarten... Though so, the programs were pretty nice... Guess those nice programs kind of cover up those "mal-childhood"??? Hahaha.. really quite a few interesting things happened.. the kite that never seems to fly... and more... Of course also new secrets only me and my bros knows... Hehehe...
Alright... Enjoy this new design, shall blog again to elaborate more on this new skin and also Pre U Seminar 2005 some other time...
You're listening to 'Explosive'... By Bond...
... on FM awpotterslair.blogspot.com...
... All Abstract, All Mysterious, All WWW...
Arthur =)
Remembering On|6/11/2005 10:48:00 PM|
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