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Friday, July 29, 2005
Hmm... When was the last time i blogged?? Hmmm i have no idea, but it doesnt matter, i think...
Well, lets backtrack a little...
After St John's... That week after St john's trip was a pretty hectic one... Lots of clearing up to do, closing accounts, and preparing for handing over... For that whole week, i didnt exactly did much of my schoolwork... The amazing thing is, right now i can't exactly remember what have i been doing in that 1 week haha... i really cant remember, i can just recall me running here and there getting this zap, that signed, those printed, rehearsals and can't remember what else...
Oh and on 5th July, it was Gaby's birthday... quite poor thing actually haha... his birthday falls on the day we had rehearsal... end up got to go home pretty late that night... but at least it was not an exam day haha...
Finally, Investiture.... Can i say that i was very glad that it was investiture?? hahaha i think if nazerah sees this, she's going to be so fuming mad with me.... hahaha... but well yes, actually i was very happy and excited about investiture... FINALLY!!!! 1 YEAR!!!
The night before investiture, some of us 24th SC councillors stayed till pretty late in rft(our sc rm)... after all, this could be our very last time in there... we had our last dinner haha though you can consider it supper after all we ate at like erm 10 pm?? then we chatted, we hang around and we even went to explore the night scenery of roof top... i can still remember vividly the few of us climbing out of the window into the porch and from there somehow smuggle into the rooftop haha.. Oh and Apple got stuck at the window hahaha.. end up he cant come out to join us, so we decided to go back... then well everyone continue to chat and hang around... we literally were there to just enjoy the room and everyone's company for as long as we can, cause after it... who knows when we will really meet up again.... but well soon after i took my leave... i decided to go home and prepare for the big day... The day of retirement....
Seriously speaking, it was pretty fast, within just hours i found myself in my blazer again and off to college again... My final day in blazer... i most probably wont be wearing this anymore... Quite sickening, we got to be in school by 6am.... i hadnt even got a decent power nap... haha...
Then... the whole 24th council were summoned to the LT5... we went there... the place was fairly lit... then we walked on... and we saw booklets on the chair... and one of the J1s ushered us to our seats... we took a seat... then Leow came in... and someone was playing the piano... gosh the whole atmosphere was so romantic haha... then Leow just said, "Councillors, may i have the honour to for once put on the blazers for you??? " Of course we said yes, who would say no right... well if you think that only when some superstars march in will see pple crying and 'fainting' for them... nah... as Leow went from one seat to another, he put on for us our blazers, one by one, individually... many started tearing and crying, rather wailing...
Well the day went pretty smooth... then finally 1100 approaching... left for preparation for the investiture in the afternoon... before i left the class, Mr Azmi gave me and of course the other councillors whom he taught chocolates.... Gosh, so touched hahaha... so sweet hahaha... and most importantly its??? CHOCOLATES!!!!! Went to LT5, Hmmm.... then something i saw really disappointed me greatly... for every guests to our investiture, they were given a bottle of water and the investiture booklet... these 2 items were placed on the chair... but it was so messy... the whole place was so... argh... though its not my investiture, but i just couldnt stand it, so went to adjust all the bottles and booklets... i took up a booklet and read it... alright, kind of regret reading... if i havent, then i wouldnt have seen the mistakes and less disappointment... Why am i disappointed?? Well perhaps cause i have quite a high hope on my juniors, thats why i would never expect such things from them...
Anyway, the big day is here... There goes the Explosive, the 24th glided to our positions and with Exodus, we once again, as we did before a year ago, step up onto the stage... But this time its different, this time, we are the ones preparing to take off our badge... First certificates, then a speech by Leow... In his speech, everyone was still pretty composed, till... "Councillors, please rise... Councillors, please remove your badge..." immediately tears from many... with the closing of the curtains, wailings... it was so loud, i think the first row audience could hear it...
Well, through the whole thing, well many pple cried, even in my general exco, 3 cried, cept me... i have a feeling i am the only one who didnt cry throughout the whole investiture... from preparation till stepped down.. i dont know what to cry about... perhaps cause i wasnt very attached in the first place?? while some couldnt bear to leave the room, i seemed to walk out easily.... i seldom enter the room in the first place...
However, for all these while, i always say, nah i will miss nothing of council... Hmmm... alright not exactly nothing... i really miss dawn, andre, yihao... gabriel, well yes, but i still get to see him pretty often haha though along the corridor only... but for the other 3... gosh, they seem to have vanished from this earth... I have no idea where have they gone.... where are you guys??? Dre??? Dawn?? if you dont know... i miss u guys alot!!! haha... i think the only thing i really miss is the bond i have with the few i am closer to... the rest, well... yes starting perhaps abit i gues... but life's seems to be the same again... while some struggling to live as a 'civilian', i seemed to adapt like nobody business, i guess cause, i have always been among the crowd... its just going back to the crowd... whats the diff?? i dont show my face like apple or naz, or even yihao... i simply live my simple life... simple but not a low life though.... i got back to the momentum easily...
Weeks have passed...everything is back to normal, it had gone back to norm long time ago, but then haha lets just say now, its official... Now i take on a new role, ahhaa Minister of Mugger Affairs... influencing others to be muggers like me, and keep that momentum all the way till A's...
2 things really bothers me now.... Mine and my dear one's academic and my rib... Well, its 47day to Prelims, and i have to dump my COO and get a BBC... is it achievable??? Yes... Nothing can hold me back... I want i can... If i ignore everyone around me, no prob... but the problem is... i have a problem with that... i cant see myself ignoring everyone around me, letting them suffer, die on their own, while i get my As... i decided, just get my Bs and Cs for Prelims and strike harder for A's... If you ever consider "terrorism affects everyone" as a cliche, as a propaganda... i tell you no... its a vvvvvvv true fact... Where is Cambridge??? Britain, to be specific, i think its in London right??? correct me if i am wrong, i am not very sure... but, London or not, Harlow??!!! DANGER ZONE!!! What if the marker is somewhere near the bomb site and BOOM!!! there goes the paper.... where do we get my grades??? PRELIMS!!! i mean Touch Wood, dont ever let it happen... but theres such a possibility... so the best thing to do now is, find Al Qaeda and negotiate that no bombings till after March next year.. hahah let me get my A's level results first... haha... imagine if they bomb our test papers... gosh... how many JC students are going to support Bush and our government... haha all are going to be anti terrorists... alright not giving any ideas.. but well hahaa...
Next Rib.. some may understand what i mean immediately by the word 'rib'... Eve came from Adam's rib... got the hint??? Well... Sigh... quite sad.. i miss someone... miss her voice... miss the sight of her... and the best of all, i doubt she even knows it... Will we ever be together??? Erm lets build the friendship first before even talking about the other things hahaha... I dont think we even know each other more to say together??? Sometimes Affairs of the heart are so hard to comprehend... But A's first i guess... But hope i get to meet my rib soon... And though i do not know who is my rib, but hopefully she could be... hahaha....
alright thats all for now....
Remembering On|7/29/2005 12:38:00 AM|
Friday, July 01, 2005
The Sight of You is like seeing the borders of the Galaxy...
As some of you know, i am quite an inspirational person... Not saying that i inspire others, but as in i am a person who works by inspirations... and well that phrase just came to my mind...
...The Sight of You is like seeing the borders of the Galaxy...
To some, its so sweet... To some, its uncomprehensible... But i shall decode it... well, when it first came to my mind, it has 2 meanings, and both describe my emotions and my perceptions...
As we all know the Galaxy is vast and borderless... Seeing the borders in this context likewise meant the expanse of the Galaxy... so big, so infinite that no one can embrace...
So, what do i truly mean in that phrase??? Alrite it has something to do with that special 'You' ... I miss her... Hope i get to see her, yet she is so far away... I didnt even get to hear her voice... Right now, the sight of her, the smell of her, the touch of hers are all so great... so great its like infinity... yet just like the borders of the Galaxy... so wide, its beyond reach... I may miss her, i may like her, yet it seems near impossible that i would ever be with her... Pessimistic some would say, but so is it realistic... Am i losing hope too early??? perhaps... but in the first place how much hope is there???
Remembering On|7/01/2005 12:02:00 AM|
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